Mornings in Makati

A powdered substitute of coffee alongside a bowl of vegan sprouted, organic cacao rice grains. Consumed in a matter of minutes, as I begin my morning catching up on the not so social, social media. I figured it was time I treat my body a little nicer and ease up on the copious amounts of dairy that I consume daily - given that I am a self diagnosed lactose intolerant individual.

There are many things that I am both certain and uncertain about in this life. But this is what I am certain about. At this point in time, right here, right now, I am so fucking happy. I am also certain that I am ready to leave this filthy apartment that these tiny creatures, to what some know as to be “ants” have infiltrated. I just cant be surrounded by people who are, whats the word? Oh right - dirty. So maybe thats an uncertainty in itself - me wanting to move out as soon as possible, so I can freely do as i please. So i can watch all of my subscribed youtube channels in peace without having to take out my earphones every damn second to see if someone is speaking to me.

A slight headache is lingering over me. But i get let that get me down. The thing with me is that once i slow down, once I embrace the feeling that im experiencing - if i acknowledge it and let it be known, then theres no coming back from that mood. Its actually a psychological fact* that say, if you keep telling yourself you are sleepy, you will only continue to feel exactly that; sleepy. So the less attention you give it, the better. Those times where you parents told you that you weren’t hurting when you fell over and hurt your knee werent infact just for the sake of saying it trying to trick your young, naive brain.

One thing that i have learnt, whilst on this crazy journey, is to let things be. Let things fall into place. I mean I’ve always been a big believer in the saying of “whatever is meant to be, will be” but this recent events have really pressed on just that saying. Ive always fully entrusted to the law of attraction, and to life that whatever God is out there, He or She or They, have placed all these events, all these people in your life for a reason. And as uncanny as the timing seems, youre not meant to question it, you are literally just meant to go with the flow of it all. Embrace it. Embrace the uncomfortable timing, and questioning of who the hell is that person and why did they walk into my life now. Because it is all a test. And quite often, those people, those events that you seem so uncertain about, turn out to be the best damn things that walk into your life. I can vouch for that because I feel that the best damn thing has done exactly that - walked into my life at the weirdest time, the weirdest hour and has flipped it right around.

The spontaneity of life truly gives me the greatest rush of adrenaline and I feel like right now, I am truly living life to its fullest - and I hope you can do it with me too.